release date
october 6th, 2017

music, lyrics
Mariusz Duda

recorded, mastered by
Magda and Robert Srzedniccy Serakos Studio, warsaw, poland
june 2016 – june 2017

symphonic orchestra recoding
jakub mańkowski, łukasz kumański custom 34 studio, gdańsk, poland
october 13-14th 2016

mixed by
magda and robert srzedniccy, mariusz duda serakos studio, warsaw, poland
april, june 2017

produced by
mariusz duda, magda and robert srzedniccy

illustration, design, layout by
travis smith

mariusz duda photos by
oskar szramka

mariusz duda – keyboards, bass and acoustic guitars, piccolo bass guitar, percussion, programming, lead and backing vocals

wawrzyniec dramowicz – drums

marcin odyniec – saxophone on 4, 6 and 8

sinfonietta consonus orchestra – on 3 and 6 (conductor – michal mierzejewski; I violin – julia ziętek, karolina gutowska, martyna kopiec, judyta sawicka, katarzyna libront, paulina kuśmierska; II vioin – magdalena szczypińska, karolina janiak, anna gospodarek, tomasz chyła, gabriela żmigrodzka; violas – krzysztof jakub szwarc, maciej rogoziński, ewelina bronk-młyńska, eliza falkowska, cellos – weronika kulla, alicja rożycka, katarzyna kamińska; contrabass – damian wdziękoński; management – joanna kożuch. the project was held in cooperation with music landscapes productions company)

blood on the tightrope

don’t look down
don’t hesitate now
just so you now
there’s no return

halfway across
high above the fractured city and life
soon it will all be over
but you have to move forward

don’t look up
don’t daydream too much
just so you know
there will be blood
even if you stay neutral

no matter how hard you try
to shut down you your feverish thoughts
they hunt you down with no regret
cause you have to fix it all

so you did fairly well with the goals you set for your pride
and even though you’re like a tightrope walker with a fear of heights
and your legs wobble and your arms helplessly flail around
you strive to maintain the highest level of not giving up

but no matter how hard you try
to shout down your feverish thoughts
they hunt you down with no regret
cause you have to fix it
you have to fix it all

every day
every night
we walk the line
trying not to fall

every day
every night
we’re getting close
then we lose control

we rise
we shine
then we fall down
in love with the moon
waiting for the sun

every day
every night
we walk the line
trying not to fall

every day
every night
we’re getting close
then we lose control

with shattered minds
with broken hearts
in love with the moon
waiting for the sun

for the sun we are waiting for the sun we are waiting
for the sun we are waiting for

anymore

i want to tell you about something
you don’t talk to me anymore
want to share my innermost desires
you don’t talk to me anymore

i need to show you what i’m like
what i’ve achieved
what i have understood
then you might tell me you are proud of me

but you don’t talk to me anymore
i want to show you my words on paper
but you don’t talk to me anymore
just want to say that i am sorry
but you don’t talk to me anymore

i need to show you what i’m like
what i’ve achieved
what i have understood
then you might tell me you’re proud of me

but you don’t talk to me anymore

crumbling teeth and the owl eyes

sleep on tight
my little girl
please do not wake up
i am selfish
for i need
something from your dream
a little patch
that will cool me down

there’s no land of unicorns
and no rainbow stars
you are growing up so fast
but you still believe and fly so high
without falling down

stay with me now
all my dormant fears are coming
back to my mind
it seems that you’re the only one who can
help my heart get through the pain

and the sound
like far-off drums
hammers in my head
i can hear them getting ready
i know they’re coming for
what’s left of my soul

let me steal a part of your
childish innocence
let me sit down by your side
pull myself together
and deny
that i’m falling apart

stay with me now
all my dormant fears are coming
back to my mind
it seems that you’re the only one who can
help my heart get through the pain

sleep on tight
my little girl
please do not wake up
i am selfish
for i need
something from your dream
a little patch
that will cool me down

you came to my gloomy world
lightened up my sky
thanks to you i’ve realized
what i am still afraid of
i’m afraid for you

stay with me now
all my dormant fears are coming
back to my mind
it seems that you’re the only one who can
help my heart get through the pain

red light escape

i’m locked in a room with no escape
no description key
no clue how to begin
the countdown clock is on the wall
4 red digits have invaded my soul

soothe the pain
my body hurts
just take away
what lies within
help to forget
unlock my true addiction
set me free

borderline is crossed again
i can get beyond myself
two years of sobriety
i know i gave up
but i have to feel

just put me to the test
it’s time to play our game

soothe the pain
my body hurts
just take away
what lies within
help to forget
unlock my true addiction
set me free
borderline is crossed again
i go beyond myself

just put me to the test
it’s time to play our game

fractured

through your stormy waves
through your crumbled walls
through your broken sky
through your fractured soul

a thousand shards of heaven

you can say that i belong to
all the moments
that i couldn’t let
sink into my oblivion
you can say that i’m yearning
for something that’s already gone
but i’m not a prisoner

i want to feel what it’s like
when sorrow turns into strength
i want to feel what it’s like
when there’s no screeches in my head

you can say that i’m chasing
something that is unattainable
so you know my way to survive
you can say that i’m surrounded
by the ruins of my previous life
but i am not a prisoner

i want to feel what it’s like
when sorrow turns into strength
i want to feel what it’s like
when there’s no screeches in my head
i want to feel what it’s like
when dreams of mine don’t leave a mark
on my battered heart

you can say that i belong to
all the moments
that i couldn’t let
sink into my oblivion
you can say that i am yearning
for something that’s already gone
but i am not a prisoner

i want to feel what it’s like
when sorrow turns into strength
i want to feel what it’s like
when there’s no screeches in my head
i want to feel what it’s like
when dreams of mine don’t leave a mark
i want to feel what it’s like
when what i lost comes back to life
to heal my battered heart

a thousand shards of heaven
staring at the stars

a thousand shards of heaven
drinking coldness from the night

i collect my story
under the fragmented sky
traveling through my wasteland
praying for the rain to come

i need your every tear to save my life
i need your every tear to save my life

battlefield

when i had to kill
for the first time
and most of them just went away
i fell into your arms
my sweet-lipped goddess of indifference

memories were leaving me
one by one
slowly dying out
a few of them
like the stones
stuck on a battlefield in silent cry

the wind was blowing
and the song that he sang to me
was so beautiful and so fragile
all i have left alive
was crying out my name
wanting me to come back

when i had to kill
for the second time
and all of them just went away
i got up from my knees
and became a man
standing over the boy’s grave

shadows were trying to get inside
while the vultures were circling in the air
the dust has settled
and the field
uncovered part of me
i couldn’t recognize

i’m learning to live
with phantom pain
trying to get used to the brighter light
i’m taming the ache
new scars on my face
the days when everything inside of me collapsed

dreams that have gone
and my weaknesses
hounded and scared
rebuilt their barricades
on my battlefield
they got a second chance
feeding on my remorse
dwelling on the past

the fiery red cracks in the sky
what has gone to pieces will not take hold of me
standing upright
with open eyes
when tears have turned to fists
feel my time has come

and the broken hearts will not break through my mind
and the broken hearts will not break through my mind
and the broken hearts will not break through my mind
and the broken hearts will not break through my mind

moving on

we
have
taken our world apart

lost our faith
sealed inside the plastic life

intimidated and resigned
we wait

turned away from each other

we failed
for we did nothing about us

promises
empty
and full of lies

i have a chance to save my last
shreds of time

follow my instinct
i’m not afraid to try

done with your failures
you blame me for

i’m moving on
i’m moving on
i’m moving on
i’m moving on

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