release date
october 13th, 2014

Music, lyrics
Mariusz Duda

Recorded, Mastered by
Magda and Robert Srzedniccy Serakos Studio, Warsaw, Poland
October 2013 – June 2014

Mixed by
Magda and Robert Srzedniccy, Mariusz Duda

Produced by
Mariusz Duda, Magda and Robert Srzedniccy

Illustration, design, layout by
Travis Smith

Back cover photo by
Tomasz Pulsakowski

Mariusz Duda – vocals, bass and acoustic guitars, ukulele, keyboards, percussions
Wawrzyniec Dramowicz – drums

Shutting Out The Sun

Confided inside
Every night/day
Locked in the shell
Desolate self

Lost track of time
In fanciful life
Locked in the shell
Desolate heart

Prison of my own making
Self-imposed solitude
Fortress of my own making
Within my soul
I’m fallen

Cold

Cold illucid world outside
Dim, amorphous silhouettes of hope
Trying to retain their shades
By praying to the sun

I press my face against the pane
Stuck inside a container called myself
Watching all these blurry faces yearning to be sharp
Hiding from the sobbing noise
And resounding laughs

But there’s something beyond that draws me in
I abandon my shelter when the crowd thins out
I go there when the warm night falls
Stay behind the yellow line
Insecure

Maybe one night
I dare to forget
I dare to try
I know you are waiting
Somewhere at the edge of us

There’s something beyond that draws me in
There’s something beyond that draws me in

Gutter

They crawl out from the dark
Permeate through my door
Float in the hallway
Slowly blend into the walls

In the shadow of my grief
I can hear whispered sounds
Feel a cold breath on my skin
Here they come
To assert their rights

The fear is what I need, what I need to believe
The fear is what I need, what I need to feel

And so i dragged myself
Into this gutter of mine
Where shades of prey
Feed on my soul

I crave to commit my words
To the book of stifled cries
I fell down so long ago
I don’t remember now

The fear is what I need, what I need to believe
The fear is what I need, what I need to feel

And so i dragged myself
Into this gutter of mine
Where shades of prey
Feed on my soul

Stars Sellotaped

(Instrumental)

The Fear Within

(Instrumental)

6. Treehouse

I deface
All the dreams that followed
And deformed my mind
When i fell into your heaven

Now i bend the spoons
As i bend the reality
I warp the truth
As i warp the time inside my head

I deface
All the dreams that followed
And deformed my mind
When i fell into your heaven

Now i bend the spoons
As i bend the reality
I warp the truth
As i warp the time inside my head

Can you hear
All is quiet
It feels all right
I guess i fell into your heaven

Pygmalion’s Ladder

So maybe I shine by reflecting light
And in the world of fiction I’ve settled in
Condemned myself to solitude

Light and dark
My home
Despair
Laughter and tears
My voice and your touch

So maybe I’m damaged beyond repair
Asleep in my ivory-cage with shutters down
But I retrieved my dreams of us

Light and dark
My home
Despair
Laughter and tears
My voice and your touch

***

Embraced by distorted clouds
My lucid nightmare is back again
First waves of the rising tide
I run away from the flood of bile and filth
I reach out my hands to you
But I drown in the murk with my silent scream
Suddenly!
Suddenly!

Sky Drawn in Crayon

Finally
I feel calm
Anxiety disappeared
There’s no pain at all

Finally
It went away
There is no regret
I know
I understand

I can breathe
A sigh of relief
I accept the end of my
Closed reality

I need a sky
Innocent sky
I feel like i left
My shell behind

The room full of light
Is tidied up
I drew back the curtains
And removed all my doubts

I need a sky
My moonlight and my sunset
Drawn with a trusting childlike smile

Walking on a Flashlight Beam

Silence
How long am I here?
No sorrow
Maybe just one tear
Frozen
Somewhere in my heart
I close my eyes
Please don’t wake me up

All my nights
I lived behind the pane of glass
With my stars sellotaped
Above inside
In the midst of that
I’ve been searching for you
Walking on a light
On a man-made moon

I now float into
The darkest realm within
Where time never ends
It sleeps in the field of the evermore
Between different spaces
I dream where I belong
The time will never end
And I will not fear the falling anymore

All my nights
I lived behind the pane of glass
With my stars sellotaped
Above inside
In the midst of that
I’ve been searching for you
Walking on a light
On a man-made moon

I now float into
The darkest realm within
Where time never ends
It sleeps in the field of the evermore
Between different spaces
I dream where I belong
The time will never end
And I will not fear the falling anymore

Walking on a Flashlight Beam…
Walking on a Flashlight Beam.

Burning Shed
Mystic
Rock Serwis